Living in Montana, I created my own trend: nast. I coined the word and created a culture around it. What gained my nast culture popularity was my covetous nast mixes. Those lucky enough to be in the circle would receive my latest mix cd: a perfect blend of songs all centered around my current mood. DJ Nast Frazz made way too many mixes for me to be proud of. My favorite mixes were the end of year mixes; which consisted of a song of that month, the song of the summer, the date night song, and my song of the year. The end of year mix was a complete set of 15 songs and took much consideration. To this day, I still get requests to create a new nast mix but I haven’t created one since I went on my mission in 2013. I gave up the nast life and have been very quiet with my music adventures, unless you’re lucky to get my apple music texts. Well my Apple Music followers might have noticed that I created a Nast 2018……That’s right, the Nast Mix is BACK! Here you’ll get to see my year unfold and see the develop of who I was and became this year.
January: Filthy by Justin Timberlake
A good pop song to start the year off great! This song brings back memories of the start of trying to rediscover who I was and what I wanted to happen. Scarred of graduation approaching and unsure what I wanted in my life, I allowed this song to be a release. Justin Timberlake is one of my favorite celebrities and it was great to get new music…. finally. When this song first came out, those around me found it annoying but in time would come to love it as well. A catchy beat and simple lyrics kept this song in my head way too much. It became my new hashtag to write on couple’s social media.
February: Love, Love, Love by Avalanche City
This song reentered my life upon watching Peter Rabbit in theaters with my friend KP. The month of love reminded me that I was alone again. Though I would try to date, I came to realize that dating was hard when I was fixed on one particular person. My bros talked a lot about their wives and how much they loved them. Though happy for them, I was also very jealous. This song expressed the feelings that I yearned for in my life: a cute, simple love.
March: Tequila by Dan + Shay
Heartbroken and unsure about my future, Tequila came at a time that I needed it. A contender for the song of the year and one that I seem to relate too much with. March was the month of much self-doubt. I had only one offer and didn’t feel right about it. It seemed like everyone in my program had their lives figured out and knew what they were doing upon graduation. I however didn’t. I felt like a loser and just wanted to know. The more I would pray, the more I would get the answer to be patient. Focusing on my school work was the only thing that I loved. My home was full of people disrespecting each other, so this is the month I vowed not to speak anymore, and I went extremely quiet. I would end the month with 4 college offers and 9 job offers with an April 1st deadline. Stress was in full force this month.
April: Never Ever by Lord Huron
My hipster life couldn’t wait long enough for a new Lord Huron album. Then, when it came out, I related! This song is the one that hit my soul so hard. The yearning on wanting someone that you can’t and still seeing them in your life everywhere you went. “She was gone without a warning” – could these lyrics be more real? Not talking, barely laughing, and unsure about life; I found myself listening to a lot of Lord Huron and this song in particular. I just needed an escape and change.
May: Velvet Elvis by Kacey Musgraves
Let me start by saying that I think Kacey Musgraves’ Golden Hour album is the best album that has come out in 2018! Hands down the greatest thing. I can’t stop listening to it. Velvet Elvis is the song that kicked off the summer in Provo and gave me the confidence to start dating again. This was just a feel-good song about wanting a classic love. As I began creating dating goals again, this song just felt fun. It reminded me to be silly with dating and to live life as if no one is watching. This is when my laugh began to come back to my life. May was the month my life started to change when graduation kicked it off. Scared and a bit excited for change, I found myself ready to take on the adventure with a classic twist again, Gatsby was coming back. Instead on conforming, I started to actually let loose and this song was the perfect recipe for it.
June: Saturday Sun by Vance Joy
“Oh, Saturday Sun, I met someone! Don’t care what it cost, no ray of sunshine is ever lost.” This album actually came out in March and I didn’t fully appreciate it till the summer. Wishing for a good summer love and with an offer to move to California, the month of June was a lot of confusion. However, it was met with late nights longboarding with KR and AR till I crashed hard the week after my birthday. My birthday month became one for the books! I had the most perfect month of summer in June. There were many words of advice from RT, bon fires with interesting people, pool side babes, and Penguin Brothers. Unsure for what the future would bring, I used this month and song to be my chance to truly live.
July: I Could’ve Been Your Girl by She & Him
This is the month that I discovered the show New Girl. I watched all 6 seasons on Netflix in just three weeks – no shame. I found the fictional character that truly embodies me: Schmidt. I discovered She & Him because of New Girl, and there was no turning back! I was going on dates with someone and I could have made her mine, if I really wanted to. However, I knew I was moving, and I didn’t want to lead her on. July was the month I gave up on a dream job and made a life altering change that would shape the next few months for the better. There seemed to be so many things that could’ve been mine and I altered from them in this month. July, I was completely obsessed with Zooey Deschanel.
August: I Don’t Miss You by Jake Scott
I started a new job, moved, and completely changed my life in August. It was just one thing after another. Change is something that I don’t always like, and August was really hard! I tricked myself into thinking that I didn’t miss my old life. I told myself that I didn’t miss my old ward to go to this new one. I told myself that I didn’t miss my old roommates, even though I made several trips to Southern Utah to be with one of them. I was really struggling with this new life. Looking back, jumping straight into the deep end was the best thing that I did.
September: Fun and Games by Kelsea Ballerini
September is the month that I decided to embrace my new life and a new life meant new girls to meet. My roommate and I decided to hit the dating scene rather hard. There is douchbag inside of me and I let him out, or in other words, I let the dirty slut out of the slut-house. I tried to allow women to be my distraction. Fun and Games was a perfect theme song for the fella with the hella good hair.
October: Walls by The Lumineers
A remake of a Tom Petty song for the one-year mark of his death (may he rest in peace), The Lumineers had me dead on this month. Some days are happy, and some days are sad. Recovering from two traumatic events in October made it unsure how to feel or express. I kind of went into hiding this month. RM helped me to set realistic goals to make it one day at a time. I was trying to find my new purpose in life and I discovered a glimpse of it.
November: Norway by The Brummies
Ready to embrace a new purpose in life and ready for love, Norway has been a fun jam. I feel like November was bringing my hipster life back to action. Flannel and beanies needed a good weird song to match it. This song is all about wanting to get back with old love, and that’s how I feel. November is how I was able to find a blend of my old life into my new life. It’s the yearning for an old love. It’s just wanting to get out and go to Norway – AR we’re going to go!
December: Lonely Man of Winter by Sufjan Stevens
I’ve said it before and I will say it again, Sufjan Stevens is the music of my soul! I couldn’t have been more excited when I found out that he released a Christmas song. Then, I heard it and feel in love with the first play. I’m alone but not for long. I’m excited for the end of this year and to watch this month unfold. I’m actually in love with the snow on the ground, something I would never say. I think we all feel alone till we notice how much good is really around us.
New Date Night Song: Connection by OneRepublic
New house means new date night song. I worked really hard to find a new date night song. I tried out different ones. First Date by Blink-182 almost made it but ultimately, this is the song! This is how I feel just before going on a date. I want a connection and there are many women around me; I just need to find one. Dating this year has gone in some cycles and even took a low at times. I love dating but I’m ready to actually find love again. I’m ready to slow down and start working on a family. I want a wife and that’s what I’m looking for. I’m done playing the dating games and that’s what this song is all about. I know that makes me sound desperate but I really want to create my own little weird family.
Song of the Summer: Girls Like You by Maroon 5 and Cardi B
This summer had a lot of amazing songs, but this was a clear winner in my boat. This song brings back the memories of hammocking all over the place, flipping burgers on the grill, chilling on a floaty at the pool, late night cannon drives, and ultimately just living life to the fullest. It came out the week of my birthday and hasn’t stopped being played from my earbuds. It reminds me of getting in to MM’s car to start the birthday festivals. It’s morphed into messed up rap lyrics with RM. It reminds me of KR and RT late night talks on couch. It’s camping trips or accidental couple retreats. This song embodies everything of summer, my favorite time of the year. I also love this music video so much! Aly Raisman just slays it! When she holds Adam Lavine’s hand, I was super jealous of him the first time I watched it.
Song of the Year: Mystery of Love by Sufjan Stevens
Do I even need to say that this the song of year? Those around me, I’m sure y’all are ready for this song to go away. I’ve currently listened to this song 383 times on my iTunes and that doesn’t count the times I’ve listened to it on YouTube. I think this is the most beautiful and accurate song. It expresses every feeling I’ve ever felt with dating. I’ve processed every emotion in this song, and in the order presented in this song. It brings me so much joy and comfort. It’s dark and creepy. It has a hopeful approach to love and the role that it plays in life. I literally listen to this song at least once a day. I run to it. I’ve swam laps in the pool to it. I’ve deep cleaned my house it. I’ve laughed, and I’ve cried while listening to this song. When I think of 2018, this is song that I think of. Half way through the song, it proposes the question: How much sorrow can I take? Broken-hearted, depressed, angry, frustrated, confused, and upset are how I spent a good portion of this year. Though, I will say this year was also the happiest I have ever been. I have felt so loved, so loved! I have felt forgiven. I have felt excited and giddy. This song is the perfect bow to my year.
I’m excited to see what 2019 will unfold. However, I must say that I’m beyond grateful for my 2018. All of my prayers have been answered. Many goals have been accomplished. Life was a rollercoaster, but it was worth the ride. I will always cherish and love this past year. 2018 is one for the books.