Today I was able to see the hand of God in my life so much while I was doing my personal study. I realized how much my Heavenly Father loves me today. I have been debating on making a decision, one that I haven’t been too comfortable with and one that I feel that could change many things. For a few days now, I have been praying to know for an answer and through this week, the Lord has been giving me so many different ways to give me the same answer. Its weird to me to think of how the Lord has been reaching out to me in many ways to give me the answer that I have needed to hear. The Lord will always answer our prayers because he loves us. I have also came to know that even in times where we feel that there is no one that we can talk to or go to, that the Lord is there for us. I haven’t felt that there is one that I could reach out to lately for a few issues. So I have been taking it to the Lord. It can feel a bit lonely at times and stressful because I don’t have a conclusion but the Lord has been helping more than I have thought he would. He gave me so much comfort today that He is there. I know that because he loves us. There is not a person that our Heavenly Father doesn’t love. He will always be there in troubling times.
It’s almost spring time. How I love spring time. As February approaches, I am reminded of countless efforts put into running. February is always the start of a new season. Countless days of working hard into workouts all for the rush of being able to line up on the line, to have my heart flutter till a gun is sounded and then I am off to race across a glorious track. It’s almost track season and it is by far my most favorite time of the year. I can still smell the beautiful smell of the track or a fresh pair of new Nike spikes. Even the gross smell of salt from runs that have taken too long. Time after time, I am reminded of what makes me who I am. Every morning, here in Arlington, I see people out running. Every morning, I am reminded of my passion of life. How I yearn to have that ability. How I just want the chance to do it all over again. To get the opportunity to have it all back. However, every morning I am reminded that those days are gone. That I won’t get to compete again. I am reminded of how it all came to a stop in the blink of an eye. January reminds me of how two years ago I sat in a doctors office being told that I would never get the chance to run the way I wanted to anymore. How I would have to learn how to adjust to a new life style. There are days where I don’t feel that my body is really mine. There are days where I just want to get to a new one. Where I am sick and tired of waking up in pain. I just want it all to stop. I want to still have my active life back and not be afraid to run around for a long period of times. Those days are tough but then I am spiritually confirmed of reasons why I am given this trial. My spirit taps my soul to tell me of spiritual strength I have been given. I am reminded that our Father in Heaven will never gives us a trial that is too hard to bare. Those spiritual confirmations help give me the strength to press on. They give me the strength to laugh through the hard times. My spirit helps to look at spring time with much anticipation that this next season will be alright. Each morning that I wake up that I don’t feel that I can do it no longer, I am given strength through Jesus Christ. This atonement is one that I am contently having to draw strength to continue on. To help me put my head up high and place a smile on my face.
“The Lord gives us ways to help remember Him and His sustaining powers. One way is through that common lot we all share–adversity (see Alma 32:6). As I look back at the trials I have faced, it is clear that they have resulted in my growth, understanding, and empathy. They have drawn me closer to my Heavenly Father and His Son with experiences and refining engraved into my heart.”(Drawing Closer to God, Elder Terence M. Vinson)
Through the atonement of Jesus Christ, we each can have the opportunity to be cleansed of all of our sins. Jesus Christ loves us so much that he died and suffered for us. He took on every pain so that we could have the chance to repent of the sins that we do. When we sin, we have those feelings of guilt, shame, depression, and even heartache. Through true repentance, we can have the chance to have that burden lifted off of us. We can be made whole because of sacrifice that he made for us. There is not a sin that can not be cleansed through the Savior.
“Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow.” – Isaiah 1:18
When we pray, we are asking the Lord to help guide us in our lives. It allows us to align the will of the father and the will of the child together. It always seems weird at first. It can feel that you are just praying to no one. However, there is always someone there that is listening. Our Heavenly Father listens to everything that we say to him and will answer every prayer. Sometimes we have to be patient but he does answer it. The best thing about prayer is the fact that we can find the peace and comfort that we need from prayer. Whenever hard times occur, we can turn to the Lord to get the relief that we need to make it through the rough times. Our Father is there and is just waiting for us to call upon him. A lady in line at Subway told me the other day that Prayer is the only phone line that is not busy and is always there for us. This lady is absolutely right! There never is a time where we can’t ask the Lord to help us when we need it. The Lord will answer our prayers as a way to show his love for us.
There are times in life where we just want to quit. We want to throw the towel in and say that we are done. However, we have a loving Heavenly Father that will always be there for us. We will always have Jesus Christ to turn to as a source of aid. No matter what life throws our way, we can make it through the fight by turning to the one that loves us the most. He will always be there no matter what.
….. I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trail of your faith (Either 12:6).