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Spider-Man to the Rescue

I’ve also been a big fan of Spider-Man. Growing up, I loved watching Spider-Man save people and at times I also felt somewhat like Peter Parker. However, the Peter Parker that is in the Amazing Spider-Man.

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You know the one that is a bit more edgy and rides a skateboard. Loves photography but keeps that more of secrete. The Peter Parker that wants to get Gwen Stacy but feels that she is too much out of his league. Then the moment he tries to ask her out and it comes out with nothing coming out his mouth, but he walks away with a bit of a skip and  the biggest grin of his face. The Peter Parker that feels like he has to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders and because of life he doesn’t get to keep the girl. He pushes her way, when really, he needs her the most and then she moves or alters her life. Yet, he can’t stop thinking about her. Then, it is back to carrying the world. He also has a similar hairstyle to me.

I know it’s a bit sad to say but I just connected my life to a super hero. Maybe that is because I grew up in love with super heroes. My mom let me wear a cape as a child and I would pretend that I was the flash. When I got my truck, my friend named it Captain Crunch and me the Boy Wonder. I would drive off to save some aspect of the world. Lately, I’ve been watching Spider-Man on repeat because it just seems so fitting with life and I’ve wanted to escape the reality of my final semester. I  even got to do a photo-shot this semester with my buddies where I    was dressed in a Spider-Man costume. It was rather fun.

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I never realized how much people depend on me until this semester. Every day, someone at school would ask for help and have me teach them the principles. All of my group mates would depend on me to have many aspects of the projects done. Phone calls and Face-times to help many people with their homework. I’ve had to step up and take on leadership roles to guide these individuals to graduation. Then yesterday, I realized how much I do at work. My boss now wants to me train someone else on everything that I’ve been doing lately and have the up to date on my projects. It’s been what I’ve needed to help me escape my mind on the girl. Though she will occasionally creep her way into my thoughts and then I need to push them away. It has made me feel like I have to do so much or else it will never get done. I carry the weight of everyone around me. I have this notion that if I don’t, then I’m going to be letting everyone around me down. I have this fear that things won’t be done effectually and it’s not going to look good. I carry around so much and like Spider-Man, I just want to do good and succeed. I want to help the world in exchange for my stress.

The last relationship that I was in, the girl told me that I worry too much for the ones around me. That I need to let everyone around me start to carry their own burdens for a change. I just feel like I have a responsibility to help everyone. I push everyone close to me away so that I won’t hurt them. Like Spider-Man, my biggest fear is that I am going to fail. As I’ve been pondering on what is next in my life, I’ve been trying to think about what will make me happy and not those around me. It is the hardest thing that I’ve ever had to do. However, I’ve figured out my dream and passion and I’ve realized what I need to do to make sure that I am happy. As I’ve been pondering what will make me happy, I’ve found out who I  really love and it just might to late for me. So, guidelines will help me to get over her. Guidelines will help me to move forward.  Though, I  check on her a lot to make sure she is doing good and is happy (I’m not a stalker, I  promise)

So, 755 words later to show the world that I’m like Spider-Man and that I’m going after my dreams. Thank you for reading.

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