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Welcome to Utah

I think I’m getting older. Older in the aspect that I have learned that I need to continue to progress and grow as a person and once again progression has found its way into my life. Progression in so many ways. Before my mission, I had my whole life figured out. I knew what I wanted to do and I was going to the be the person that would do whatever it took to make that plan work. Going on my mission, was the first time in my life where the Lord told me to do something drastic and I was obedient and did it. (in which I would like to add, it was well worth it though I was terrified in the beginning.) On my mission, I figured I would just continue the plan that I set in place. However, towards the last six months of my mission, that plan began to not fill like the right idea. So with much prayer and fasting and trying to figure out things, I proposed a plan to the Lord and instead of getting a yes, I got a different answer. I was told to move to Provo, Utah of all places.

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Let me say, I have despised the idea of moving to Utah. Though I’m Mormon, I never in a million years have wanted to live in the state¬†filled with Mormons. I’ve liked the idea of being the only Mormon in my friends. It has given me a unique twist to my life. However, I decided that I would be obedient. The process of moving to Utah has been an interesting one. This process has taught and showed me how being obedient to what the Lord tells us to do, that the windows of heaven will be poured out to us. When he told me to go to Provo, I had no idea what to do. I had no idea how it would all work out. I had no idea what to do. With faith and prayer, I’ve seen the Lord just make everything fall into place. Its shown me how much the Lord really listens to me and gives me council.

More than anything, coming to Utah, a week ago, has given me happiness again. Living in Prosser is really hard for me. As a return missionary, I found myself lost. I found myself feeling as if I had back slid in life. I found myself not laughing again and overly stressed. Couple weeks ago, I asked God to give me happiness again and my answer was to be patient. Well, moving to Provo has been the happiest thing I’ve ever done. Major thanks to Peter Searle, Sadie Johnson, and Megan McCleary. True happiness has come even in the one hour we get together to run at night. The grosume foursome is the highlight of my day. This week, I’ve thrown myself into the library where I’ve literally locked out the world and threw myself into studying about Money mostly. Each day, the four of us have gotten together and have let the inner us come out though its ¬†mostly loud laughter.

A week ago, I was terrified of the drastic change that I was making. I have no idea why I’m in Provo. I have no idea what the purpose of me living here is. All I know is that the Lord told me to go and I listened. I’m excited for the adventures that are going to be made here (even though a man just walked pasted me dressed like Jesus). So for now, here is to the growth and change of life. Here is to a new phase. Here is to being patient to see the purpose that the Lord has for me. Also, its misty rainy today which is my favorite thing in the whole wide world. Its comes on the greatest of days to show God’s love for me.

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Light in the Tunnel

There are moments in life where we are just done! Where we traveled and can’t seem to get a break. We try so hard to over come the short comings that we have but for some odd reason, all our work just doesn’t seem to pay off. After we have tried everything we can’t just seem to make it right. It can be rather exhausting and depressing at times. We convince ourselves that we are never going to be able to solve these issues at hand. Then, out of no where a glimmer of hope is given to us that allows for us to carry on for a while. However, there are some days where we are bogged down and the glimmer of hope is only able to carry us to the next step or never comes at all. We begin to endure with all our might. We begin to try to not let it get in the way of things that are coming are way. We begin to fight through it and try to put a smile on our face.

In these moments in life, the thing that seems to help the most is Prayer and Reading the Scriptures. These two things are the light at the end of the tunnel when it seems that we can’t seem to see it. If anything, these two vital actions can allow us to God’s love for us, even when we can’t see the love for our selves. Through prayer, we are able to tell our Father in Heaven the things that are bogging us down. We can tell him the things that worrying us. If anything, God can be the one to talk to even when it seems that there is no one there to talk to he. He listens to every word we have to say and though at times it seems like he doesn’t, he is. We can find peace in knowing that he will answer our prayers.

The second aspect, reading our scriptures can help us learn the things that God needs us to do. I was once told that the scriptures are love letters written from God to us. We can read the love that God has for us. We are able to see that there is someone out there that does care for the welfare of us, even when no one around you does. I love to the read the scriptures with the attitude that they were only written for me. Its a bit selfish but in those moments, I can find the strength to carry on. I get so much out of the scriptures knowing that God wrote them for me to find strength, love, and wisdom. I am able to get more out of them.

For months now, prayer and reading the scriptures have seem like the only source of my happiness. I have been able to see that God is there for me, even if the world is not. It has been my light to help me endure through one of the biggest trial of my life. I am so grateful for the Love that my Father has in me. I’ve been able to see God’s light so much more in my life. Its the glimmer of light that helps me make it through the roughest of times

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