Coming home from a mission has been the weirdest thing I have ever done. Coming back to the world is awkward. The world just seems so weird. There are times where I just have no idea what is going on. The world is a rather weird place. There are times coming home where I am grateful for the chance to be home and then are times where I just want to go back on my mission. My mission truly was a great time of my life that I hold it very dear. It was a blessing however, I have come to learn how important change is in life. Change is probably the worst thing at times. It takes us out of the comfort zone or “My Box”. It makes us get uncomfortable and really work at new efforts. Whenever change comes upon me, I find myself calling more upon my Heavenly Father. I find myself really praying harder and searching for answers. With the help of the Lord, I have come to learn that change can be embraced. There have been days that are rather difficult and sad from coming home. There have been moments where I just want to go back. Where be home really isn’t being home. In those moments, I am truly blessed as I call upon the lord. The greatest blessing has been being able to live twenty minutes away from a temple. The temple has truly helped these past three weeks. I feel that its the only place where I feel the spirit as much as I did on my mission. Its the place where I can feel that I am home again. This has been the hardest change ever for me but I am coming to learn that I must change to progress and grow again. It is what is best for me. Change is something that we must all come to terms with. Change is not a bad thing nor a terrible thing. “Hard things are not bad, they are just hard.” Through this change, I have been blessed to see the Lord’s love poured out to me.
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Change has once again found its way into my life. I’ve come to learn that change isn’t a bad thing but rather a chance to grow and progress. A few days ago, I asked to take my name tag off as my mission came to an end. Serving in the great land of Georgia and Florida was but a blessing from the Lord. I would like to take a moment to share some of the greatest lessons that I learned while serving the Lord for two years.
I learned how to love. I never thought that I could just love people the way the Lord does. Being on a mission, I learned how to instanitly love one for who they are. My heart grew so big as I met so many amazing people. Each person has a beautiful story to tell the world. I learned that God truly loves each person for who they are and not for how the world sees them.
I learned how to cherish the Book of Mormon. Before my mission, I knew that it was the word of God but never did anything about it. My mission taught me how to treasure it. I love the Book of Mormon so much. Its the greatest gift that has ever been given to me. The Book of Mormon is the key to my life. It teaches me more than anything else. I can find the answers to the many questions I have about life. I like to think that the Book of Mormon was written just for me at times. Its my life line. Its what helps we get through the hardest of times. I am so grateful for this book. It has changed me. It has showed me the light of the God. It has given me hope, love, courage, strength, wisdom, and so much more. I love having it in my life each day. I came to love it so much.
I learned how to have a personal relationship with Christ. He is the greatest gift that our father has ever given us. He truly lives and I know that. Each day we can have his atonement in our lives and I am grateful for that. I have come to know how to have him in my life. I have learned how to come unto christ. I will now grab hold of his hand each and every day. I love my savior so much. I truly love Jesus. He is my rock and salvation. He is my best friend. I am grateful for his loving kindness. He is the most important person in my life next to the father.
I have learned to truly love this gospel. Its the best blessing ever. I have watched the gospel of Jesus Christ truly change people’s lives. I have watched it bring the greatest blessings and miracles to others. I have seen it solved the worst things in life. The gospel of Jesus Christ truly is something that we need each day in our lives. I am beyond grateful that I was blessed to share this glad message with the world.
There are many more lessons that I have learned while serving the lord. My mission changed my life and woke me up. It has been the greatest blessing in my life. I am so grateful that the Lord called me to be his representative. I honor the two years that I was given. It truly is a scared experience that I hold dear in my heart. The people in Florida and Georgia have a special place in my heart for ever. I learned so much that would take days to read.
In the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, we are taught to forgive and forget. We are taught that true repentance is when we move forward in our life and we don’t take the past with us. We have to learn from the past but we can’t let it be dealt on.
The hardest type of forgiving can come when one abandoned you. When one left you stranded with questions of wondering why. For years, this abandoned love can really take its toll on us. Thoughts, questions, and memories begin to haunt our mind because of it. We begin to blame ourselves and find fault in ourselves because of this abandonment, which is wrong. For whatever reason that person chose to leave and they are forever gone. They tell us to “just get over it” but getting over it is harder than it seems. The worst type of abandonment can come with the loss of a parent.
I’ve never met my father. I don’t know who he is or what he looks like for the most part. He left when I was an infant. Growing up was fun with a single mother but it became very difficult. It became embarrassing though time. I grew up in a small town where the rumors are more than true and in a church where everything was centered on the family. I felt like the fact that I didn’t have a father was constantly being shoved in my face. More so, I didn’t understand so many things. I grew to hate this man that I never met more than ever. I even named him my sperm donor or sd for short. I grew to have such build up. I had a hard time understanding why someone could just leave. Then he never paid his child support, which to me was more than just the money. In my mind, it meant he didn’t care about my welfare. I could be dead on the street for all he knows. Needless to say, I felt abandoned.
Time and time again, I would reach out to people to try and solve this problem. However, most would tell me to just get over it. That it was wrong for me to feel this way. Well let me tell you, one can not just get over it, especially when you go to church each Sunday and everyone is expressing how grateful they are to have both their parents. Someone would say that I just needed to experience the atonement more in my life and it would be good. I admit, I am in the wrong. One should never have this much build up inside of them. Its bad for one to hate anyone in general. Christ teaches us to love our enemies (Matthew 5:44) and to love everyone. I’ve been trying to overcome this short coming in my life. For the most part, I just throw it in the back of my mind and vaulted it up. Hoping that it will all work out. I try not to think about it and don’t let others see that I have weaknesses.
Being on a mission has been hard. I’ve come to know that one can’t teach about eternal families unless one has a testimony in it. For about twenty months now, I’ve been trying to learn how to truly forgive this man. It’s been hard. I’ve come to learn that part of forgiving is also asking for forgiveness of the things you have done. For example, it wasn’t good that I named him sd. I took for granted the fact that he help bring me to this life. I took for granted the promise and trust that our Heavenly Father gives us in our family. I have learned many life skills and the importance the role the father plays in a child’s life. Though I haven’t fully come to forgive him just yet, I can find peace through my savior Jesus Christ. I can find peace that each experience helps us to become better. I’ve come to learn that the atonement of Jesus Christ can be applied in all aspects and that it can help us overcome the abandonment in our lives. Through Jesus Christ we can feel that the father in heaven will never abandon us. We can be loved through all the hard times. My father might have left on a sunny day but my father in heaven will be there through all the thunder storms.
What is Love?
Love, what is this thing that everyone so yearns for? What is this thing that the world needs more of? Everyone is always talking about how they look so hard to find it, and then when they have, they loose it. Does anyone truly know what this thing is?
I began today in a rather different turn than usual. Instead of diving straight into the Book of Mormon, I turned to the topical guide in my bible. There lies a page with the word love on the top. In fact this word appears 217 times in the bible and 41 times in the Book of Mormon. I feel like this word is rather important to say the least. Good old Webster told me that it is “an intense feeling of deep affection.” This made me think of the worldly aspect of love. The love we all wanted to have in high school. The love that is not really love at all but rather is more lust.
Jesus Christ taught that the greatest commandment is to “love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. And the second is to love thy neighbor as thyself” ( Matthew 22:36-39). We have been told that we must love with all our heart, soul, and mind. I read this as we need to show a deep connection and intense feeling with everything we have towards God and everyone else.
I feel that true love can be defined in the Book of Mormon, and I’m not talking about that love we all thought we had and felt in high school, rather true love that others can see. In Moroni 7:47, it reads, “charity is the pure love of Christ, and it endureth forever…” Charity is when we are willing to help those in need. It’s when we show a kindness and tolerance towards others. It is when we give up of our self to give others the chance to have better. Jesus Christ was the best example of this. He allowed himself to give everything he had for the sake of mankind. He died so man can live. This is true love. Looking on the other aspect, God showed his charity to his children by allowing Jesus Christ to die. “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life” (John 3:16). God loved us so much that he gave the greatest thing to all mankind so we could all live with him again.
Love is when we give up ourselves or the thinks that our precious for us so that we can better someone else’s life. Love is sacrifice. My mom is truly an amazing example of this. The love that she has shown me in my life is incredible. She gave up everything she had to make sure her kids were taken care of. She worked two jobs and sacrificed time for me and my sisters. She put so many things on hold because she wanted to make sure her children’s needs were met. Growing up, I felt she didn’t have time for us because I didn’t understand. I didn’t realize that the reason she couldn’t make my soccer game is because she was working harder so I could play soccer. She was working so I could have chances and blessings in life. The many sacrifices she made was pure love.
Many of us feel that we must find love. Some will spend their whole life searching for it and never find it. To these people, I say they are wrong. One must first give a little love in order to gain a little love. Love will find us, we can’t go searching for it. Through our efforts of helping others and living a Christ like life, we can find the love that we all yearn to have in our life. We will find a love that will be eternal.
It seems in life that no matter where we are headed and where we are going we all have one common goal: we all want to be happy. We all yearn for that desire to be happy with the things we are doing. We all want to have that smile on our face. There is not a soul in the world that can be ok with feeling depressed, lonely, or sad. Granted there are things that each enjoys that others would cause to think are sad. For example, I love the rain. The minute it starts to drizzle my heart skips a beat and I am beyond excited to be in it. Others look at rain as depressing and cold.
The question in life seems more often then none is how can I find more happiness? How can I become happy? These simple but real questions can be found as we study and apply the gospel of Jesus Christ into our lives. Jesus Christ is the source of real happiness. The worldly things in life can only bring a temporary happiness. The affects of the world have one seeking for more happiness because they have an expiration date on them. Once the event has ended so has the happiness in one’s life. Leaving one to be back at square one. However, the gospel of Jesus Christ is different. Our true happiness is found as we apply the teaching of Christ in our life. Life will take on a whole new meaning and one will find a happiness that will last much longer than just a few hours. The happiness that one finds in Christ is a happiness that will last for eternity. Granted there will be trials and hardship but when one exercises their faith and trust in Christ, happiness can still be found in the smaller things of life. Life begins to take on a whole new meaning and one finds them self being able to endure rather than looking for a new source of happiness.
As a 23 year old man, I find the greatest source of happiness to come from the Book of Mormon. As I study the teaching of Jesus Christ, my spirit taps my soul every day to reassure the love of the savior to me. My spirit taps my soul to tell me to smile because I have been given so much. My spirit taps my heart to tell me the things I need so that I can carry on the journey. These spiritual taps give me the happiness I needed in this life. I wouldn’t have these spiritual taps if it wasn’t for the Book of Mormon. It’s the best gift that the Father has given me.
We can all find that source of true happiness in our lives as we take the time to study and then apply the teachings of our savior. I am so grateful for Jesus Christ and all that he has done for me. He is my light in this world and the source of true happiness. May we all be willing to put him in our life
We need to build your lives on a sure foundation. Like a house, we need to build our temples on a foundation that will support us and keep us steady. If we build upon Christ, we will never fall. We will be able to stand strong when temptations and storms come upon us to knock us off our course. When we build our foundation on Christ, its is as if we are building our life on an rock. The rock will not move and will strong. However, when we don’t build on a rock, it is as if we are building our life upon sand. If we build on this foundation, when the winds, rains, and storms come our way, we won’t be able stay upright. Instead, it will be washed away. I know that if we build our life on Christ, we will stand strong, tall, and will not be moved!
And now, my sons, remember, remember that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer, who is Christ, the Son of God, that ye must build your foundation (Helaman 5:12)
Its cold outside, Florida’s winter has begun. Which means a lot of
rain is upon us. Southern downpours are no laughing matters. They are
massive and usually never stop. Coldness usually puts me in a negative
mood. I hate being cold, however, joy can be found through our work.
Elder Collins and I get to find true happiness among all of this
bitterness outside. Its in teaching. Its in the laughter in the car
rides from one place to another. Its in amazing people that we get to
meet on a day to day basis. We get the joy of doing one of the hardest
things of all time: sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ. Yesterday, joy
was found in a ten year old boy: Caline. A boy who has experienced so
much hardship in his life already. One who I secretly pray will be
outside playing whenever we are on his street because my heart goes
out to him. A ten year old who just wants to be happy and have a
better life. Yesterday, Elder Collins and I got the joy of seeing him.
To calm him down from a bad day at school. We started contacting
another man and Caline just came out running to us like he was the
luckiest kid ever. He has the biggest smile on his face as he yells
Mr. Frazier, Mr. Frazier. He always seems to amazes me on how grateful
he is just to talk to us for ten minutes. A boy just wanting to be
loved. I chuckle when he says he has lost his Book of Mormon in his
bedroom. It’s there, just not sure where. If it’s anything like my
room at age ten, then it’ll be found under a pile of clothes,toys, or
a combination of the two. He is a boy that just needs someone to
listen to him. To give a few minutes to let him be heard. Its hard
because I want to, so bad, just have the chance to teach him
everything cause I know he’ll understand. In fact he can tell you all
about Joseph Smith. He knows who is, what he did, and why he is so
important. So instead, we found joy in just letting him know that God
loves him, even in the hardships and he does. There isn’t a person on
the this earth that God doesn’t love. In these cold, nasty days, I get
the joy of finding true happiness in the work I am doing. Like Caline,
life is good, so very good. I know that my happiness is only found
because I am able to serve others and my Savior.
“If you are humble and obedient and hearken to the voice of the
Spirit, you will find great happiness in your service as a
missionary.” (Called of Him to Declare His Word, Elder Randy D. Funk)