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Worthy Not Perfect

The need to be perfect in all aspects of my life is a major problem that I have. My competitive nature doesn’t help either but instead adds to having to be perfect and better than those around me. On my mission, I came to realize that this was a bad thing, especially when comparing to myself. My mission president, President Paul Craig, use to always tell me to stop beating myself up for falling short from being perfect. We spent a large amount of time over coming my perfection and realizing that I am going to fall short from the grace of God. He taught me that the Savior Jesus Christ would be the one to help make up the difference of my imperfection. Though it makes sense and something I always want to do, it is the hardest thing for me to do. It’s hard for me not to beat myself daily or weekly for not being perfect. There is always something that I should have done better and something that keeps me from being perfect.

Lately, I’ve been taking an institute class at UVU in which Brother Longmoore teaches us daily to give it all to Christ. Last week he taught us ways to allow the Atonement of Jesus Christ to help us and to trust in the Lord’s grace. Brother Longmoore has been truly inspired as a teacher because I’ve realized that it’s a terrible thing to beat ourselves up for living the gospel. He tells us that the good news should be enjoyable and we should get credit for the great things we do. Last week, he taught us that sin is not sin. Sin is just a mistake and a chance to learn, grow, and become a better person. It’s an opportunity to come closer to our Savior and Father in Heaven.

Going into General Conference this past weekend, I wanted to know how to not beat myself up daily anymore. I wanted to know how I could trust in the Lord more and use the Atonement of Jesus Christ more in my life. (Side note, this conference was a special one for me as I got to attend it in the flesh for the first time!) However, conference taught me that it is ok not to be perfect. God still loves us for not being perfect. He is proud of the progress we make daily and he is there at all times. He is grateful that we want to be better and have him in our lives.

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Elder Gong of the seventy taught that being worthy is not perfect. Rather being worthy is striving daily to keep the covenants we made with the Lord. Being worthy is willing to change and allow the Savior to be apart of our change. We shouldn’t beat ourselves up for the mistakes we make like I do. So the past few week have been eye-opening to me. Its going to be hard but rather than tearing myself apart each night and Sunday, I’m going to work on forgiving myself and letting the Savior take over my insecurities. I’m going to work on my problems and let others help me more. I have a strong desire to be better person to myself and those around me. I might not be perfect but thats ok. I have a God who knows and loves me. I have a Savior who died for my sins and is there to hold me up and wrap his arms around me. I have an amazing family who loves me and looks past my faults. I have so many amazing leaders that teach me ways to be better. I have the best roommates who help me laugh at life’s ups and downs. I have so many great friends who teach me through their examples of what it is like to be disciples of Christ. Moving forward, life is going to be good and in time, I will overcome my shortcommings. Yoked with the Savior, I will be perfect one day.

For Elder Gerrit W. Gong’s full talk: https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2016/04/media/session_5_talk_4/4829550348001?lang=eng

 

 

 


Hipster Mormon

Being one to proclaim my religion was never a thing I would choose to do my whole life till I went on my mission. In fact, going on my mission was the first time that I publicly declared to all my friends that I was Mormon. After serving two years in the south, I learned how religion really does make the person and to be proud of things that make you you. I use to be embarrassed to tell people that I was a Mormon. Being Mormon is like telling your friends your pregnant or homosexual. Its something that in society that is always very unacceptable, unless you live Utah. Being Mormon comes with all the crazy stereotypes: multiple wives, homemade clothing, and a family of at least seven to name few. However, I don’t fit the mold of your typical Mormon at all, which was another reason I never allowed people to know that I was Mormon. In fact, most Mormons don’t fit the “Mormon Mold” expect those that are the mold. I watched people in high school and college get made fun of for being a Mormon. It was something that I never wanted to happen to me, so I kept it quiet. However, I am very proud to be a Mormon. Being a Mormon is the greatest thing in my life. It allows for me to be who I am. It was helped me come closer to God and Jesus Christ. As a Mormon, I am Christian. I fully love Christ and try hard to be like him. I study from the scriptures each day for the purpose of studying who Christ is. I love Christ more than anything. Being a Mormon gives me so much purpose and direction to my life. It is what makes my life so meaningful. It what motivates me to be the crazy, outgoing, wheat thin lover, die hard runner, hipster person that I am. I might not be the traditional person but I am so proud to be a Mormon. I am not scared to say that I belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints but rather I am beyond glad to declare that I am a Mormon! Embracing my Mormon life has been one of greatest blessings for me.


Lessons Learned

Change has once again found its way into my life. I’ve come to learn that change isn’t a bad thing but rather a chance to grow and progress. A few days ago, I asked to take my name tag off as my mission came to an end. Serving in the great land of Georgia and Florida was but a blessing from the Lord. I would like to take a moment to share some of the greatest lessons that I learned while serving the Lord for two years.

I learned how to love. I never thought that I could just love people the way the Lord does. Being on a mission, I learned how to instanitly love one for who they are. My heart grew so big as I met so many amazing people. Each person has a beautiful story to tell the world. I learned that God truly loves each person for who they are and not for how the world sees them.

I learned how to cherish the Book of Mormon. Before my mission, I knew that it was the word of God but never did anything about it. My mission taught me how to treasure it. I love the Book of Mormon so much. Its the greatest gift that has ever been given to me. The Book of Mormon is the key to my life. It teaches me more than anything else. I can find the answers to the many questions I have about life. I like to think that the Book of Mormon was written just for me at times. Its my life line. Its what helps we get through the hardest of times. I am so grateful for this book. It has changed me. It has showed me the light of the God. It has given me hope, love, courage, strength, wisdom, and so much more. I love having it in my life each day. I came to love it so much.

I learned how to have a personal relationship with Christ. He is the greatest gift that our father has ever given us. He truly lives and I know that. Each day we can have his atonement in our lives and I am grateful for that. I have come to know how to have him in my life. I have learned how to come unto christ. I will now grab hold of his hand each and every day. I love my savior so much. I truly love Jesus. He is my rock and salvation. He is my best friend. I am grateful for his loving kindness. He is the most important person in my life next to the father.

I have learned to truly love this gospel. Its the best blessing ever. I have watched the gospel of Jesus Christ truly change people’s lives. I have watched it bring the greatest blessings and miracles to others. I have seen it solved the worst things in life. The gospel of Jesus Christ truly is something that we need each day in our lives. I am beyond grateful that I was blessed to share this glad message with the world.

There are many more lessons that I have learned while serving the lord. My mission changed my life and woke me up. It has been the greatest blessing in my life. I am so grateful that the Lord called me to be his representative. I honor the two years that I was given. It truly is a scared experience that I hold dear in my heart. The people in Florida and Georgia have a special place in my heart for ever. I learned so much that would take days to read.


Abandoned Love

In the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, we are taught to forgive and forget. We are taught that true repentance is when we move forward in our life and we don’t take the past with us. We have to learn from the past but we can’t let it be dealt on.

The hardest type of forgiving can come when one abandoned you. When one left you stranded with questions of wondering why. For years, this abandoned love can really take its toll on us. Thoughts, questions, and memories begin to haunt our mind because of it. We begin to blame ourselves and find fault in ourselves because of this abandonment, which is wrong. For whatever reason that person chose to leave and they are forever gone. They tell us to “just get over it” but getting over it is harder than it seems. The worst type of abandonment can come with the loss of a parent.

I’ve never met my father. I don’t know who he is or what he looks like for the most part. He left when I was an infant. Growing up was fun with a single mother but it became very difficult. It became embarrassing though time. I grew up in a small town where the rumors are more than true and in a church where everything was centered on the family. I felt like the fact that I didn’t have a father was constantly being shoved in my face. More so, I didn’t understand so many things. I grew to hate this man that I never met more than ever. I even named him my sperm donor or sd for short. I grew to have such build up. I had a hard time understanding why someone could just leave. Then he never paid his child support, which to me was more than just the money. In my mind, it meant he didn’t care about my welfare. I could be dead on the street for all he knows. Needless to say, I felt abandoned.

Time and time again, I would reach out to people to try and solve this problem. However, most would tell me to just get over it. That it was wrong for me to feel this way. Well let me tell you, one can not just get over it, especially when you go to church each Sunday and everyone is expressing how grateful they are to have both their parents. Someone would say that I just needed to experience the atonement more in my life and it would be good. I admit, I am in the wrong. One should never have this much build up inside of them. Its bad for one to hate anyone in general. Christ teaches us to love our enemies (Matthew 5:44) and to love everyone. I’ve been trying to overcome this short coming in my life. For the most part, I just throw it in the back of my mind and vaulted it up. Hoping that it will all work out. I try not to think about it and don’t let others see that I have weaknesses.

Being on a mission has been hard. I’ve come to know that one can’t teach about eternal families unless one has a testimony in it. For about twenty months now, I’ve been trying to learn how to truly forgive this man. It’s been hard. I’ve come to learn that part of forgiving is also asking for forgiveness of the things you have done. For example, it wasn’t good that I named him sd. I took for granted the fact that he help bring me to this life. I took for granted the promise and trust that our Heavenly Father gives us in our family. I have learned many life skills and the importance the role the father plays in a child’s life. Though I haven’t fully come to forgive him just yet, I can find peace through my savior Jesus Christ. I can find peace that each experience helps us to become better. I’ve come to learn that the atonement of Jesus Christ can be applied in all aspects and that it can help us overcome the abandonment in our lives. Through Jesus Christ we can feel that the father in heaven will never abandon us. We can be loved through all the hard times. My father might have left on a sunny day but my father in heaven will be there through all the thunder storms.


Light in the Tunnel

There are moments in life where we are just done! Where we traveled and can’t seem to get a break. We try so hard to over come the short comings that we have but for some odd reason, all our work just doesn’t seem to pay off. After we have tried everything we can’t just seem to make it right. It can be rather exhausting and depressing at times. We convince ourselves that we are never going to be able to solve these issues at hand. Then, out of no where a glimmer of hope is given to us that allows for us to carry on for a while. However, there are some days where we are bogged down and the glimmer of hope is only able to carry us to the next step or never comes at all. We begin to endure with all our might. We begin to try to not let it get in the way of things that are coming are way. We begin to fight through it and try to put a smile on our face.

In these moments in life, the thing that seems to help the most is Prayer and Reading the Scriptures. These two things are the light at the end of the tunnel when it seems that we can’t seem to see it. If anything, these two vital actions can allow us to God’s love for us, even when we can’t see the love for our selves. Through prayer, we are able to tell our Father in Heaven the things that are bogging us down. We can tell him the things that worrying us. If anything, God can be the one to talk to even when it seems that there is no one there to talk to he. He listens to every word we have to say and though at times it seems like he doesn’t, he is. We can find peace in knowing that he will answer our prayers.

The second aspect, reading our scriptures can help us learn the things that God needs us to do. I was once told that the scriptures are love letters written from God to us. We can read the love that God has for us. We are able to see that there is someone out there that does care for the welfare of us, even when no one around you does. I love to the read the scriptures with the attitude that they were only written for me. Its a bit selfish but in those moments, I can find the strength to carry on. I get so much out of the scriptures knowing that God wrote them for me to find strength, love, and wisdom. I am able to get more out of them.

For months now, prayer and reading the scriptures have seem like the only source of my happiness. I have been able to see that God is there for me, even if the world is not. It has been my light to help me endure through one of the biggest trial of my life. I am so grateful for the Love that my Father has in me. I’ve been able to see God’s light so much more in my life. Its the glimmer of light that helps me make it through the roughest of times

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Never Give Up

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There will be times in our lives where we will feel that what we are doing is not enough. We will feel that when we have tried all that we can that it is not enough. We will feel that what we are doing is a waste and we will want to quit in the middle of all things. These tactics are ways that Satan will make us feel. He doesn’t want us to see the success that we are yielding and he doesn’t want us to continue with the good work that we are doing. However, when those moments happen, we have to tell ourselves to push through it. To fight just a bit harder, to then dig a little bit deeper,  and then we will see that the Lord is there for us. We will see at the end of the tunnel there is light and true happiness will be found.  


My Plan to Change the World

I strongly feel that I have two major purposes in this life. One is to
be my sister’s keeper. I am here to look after my little Hailey. To
keep her protected. The second is to change the world. To make this
place a better place than it once was.

In middle school, my history teacher asked us all to make a life goal.
He asked us to ponder on what we wanted our life to be. He proposed
the question of if you could look back at your life when you die, what
one major thing do you to accomplish? Never has a question caused me
to put so much thought and perception in. As we met the following day,
I waited as everyone else took their time to share their answer to the
class. There were many that expressed they wanted to be successful
with lots of money. Others expressed things that dealt with a happy
family. As it became my turn, I stood up and gave my answer: I want to
change the world! Many of my peers began to laugh and ridicule me as
they felt my answer was a joke or unattainable. However, ever since
that day, that has been a driving factor for my life. I want to change
the world! Every thing I have done has been centered on that right
there. Many people to this day still tell me that I am never going to
do such a thing but sadly they don’t realize their lack of faith in me
is a motivation. Many of my friends have come to see my true desire
and have begun to encourage me more to do just that.

As a sophomore in college, my friend Cullen proposed another question
to me: how are you going to do it? That was one question I had never
given much thought to. I had been doing things to help many people but
never did I ever given thought to the plans of going about this goal.
Being in a Catholic college, I was blessed to have the privilege of
being in a religious class. Usually, those classes bored me and I
never paid any attention in them. However, that day, my professor had
us read Matthew 22: 39. “…. Thou shalt love thy neighbour as
thyself.” It hit me that that was how I was going to change the world.
To pay it forward. This world is lacking the love that everyone so
depressingly needs. Plan number one was drawn, to love everyone. To
see others for who they really are and not for how the world sees
them. To give them the unconditional love that their father in heaven
has given. To view people for who they can become and not for who they
are.

As a senior in college, I was feeling very content with myself. I felt
myself lacking much drive. So I named my senior year Humanitarian
Year. I planned to serve others as much as possible and to have at
least one major service project each month. I did all sorts of things
that year: soup kitchens, reading to under privilege children,
building homes in New Orleans for Katrina victims, coaching for the
Special Olympics, Habitat for Humanity, and the list goes on. This
year of service helped me realize my second plan: do service for all.
My heart began to grow deeper as I realized that we need to do our
part to help others. The savior was the greatest example as he gave
serve to all, regardless of who they are. We need to give a little
love if we want to get a little love of our own. The golden rule
always sticks out in heart, “do unto others as you would have the do
unto you.” The greatest way we can show are love for others is to
serve them. When we give service, the world becomes a little bit
better.

After college, I was lost and lacked the direction that I needed in
life. I didn’t know what I wanted and their was a component in my life
that was lacking. I had failed to build up the spiritual aspect of
life. I had failed to give credit to the person that had given me so
much. Coming on my mission, I realized my third plan: to bring others
unto Christ. The greatest blessing one can have is to have a
relationship with their Heavenly Father. As we bring others to Christ,
we are giving them the best thing ever. We are allowing for others to
receive the true happiness, joy, and peace they could ever experience
in this life. Christ has the power to heal all things. We all need to
build that trust in our Savior. As more turn to their creator, their
will be much more love in this world. I realize how important the
worth of souls is to our father. The world needs Christ in order for
it to be changed. Part of coming unto Christ is more than just going
to church each week and saying that you are saved. Rather, its being
able to live your life the way Christ lived his. When we come unto
Christ, we covent with The Lord that we will abide by his precepts and
be a representative of Christ. In order to represent him, we must live
the same way he lived. We need to be humble, meek, submissive, lovely
in heart, willing to mourn with those that mourn, kind, gentle,
loving, and the list goes on. We need to be god fearing people.

I am still creating more plans for how I will change the world. I
realize that it is a gradual process but if we can all do our part,
this world will become a better place. Let us all learn to love
others, to serve others, and bring others unto Christ. Help me change
the world! Help me make this place a better place to live in. As I
have applied these principles, I have seen so much more joy and peace
in others. I know that this place and truly have world peace through
the savior.