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Love Love Love

I think I just heard my heart sing love, love, love.

I’m currently siting in class and I received a farewell text from one of my favorite individuals. As I sit here thinking about my actions lately, I can’t help but feel love. I started to prep those around me for my departure. I know that I will be leaving this place I call my home. I’ve known since August that I will be gone. So, I’ve begun preparing those around that I will be gone. However, I feel that I am more preparing myself for this grand adventure that will be taking place in my life.

Next to my dating life, I get asked on what is next in my life. People are all curious to know what I will be using my degree for and where I will be off to next. I would like to inform the world that I have a plan!!! I know what I will be doing (You have no idea how excited that is to say!). Unfortunately, I will not be indulging that information to the world just yet. Rather, I want to keep it pure and just for me. I want to bask in the joy that this next step is for me and all for me. Every move in my life, the Lord has told me where to go. This time, he let me choose. As nerve wracking that was, it’s nothing but joy. The adventure of finding the next step has been one for the books.

Let me take you on my adventure. The past couple of months, I have applied for anything and everything. I have pictured my life in different aspects of the world and in various roles for different companies. I have allowed for each option to be on the table. Nothing has gotten written off until I have come to learn that I will not be happy in that position or given the word no. I have allowed for others to come to me too. For example, a company found this blog and approached me to be a content marketer for them. In this process, I have been rejected more than once. The word no has been something that I’ve allowed myself to become adapted to hearing. My creative outlook has been told to be unoriginal and dull in some companies. I’ve been told that I am better on paper than in person. I have been told that I will never make in the digital marketing world. I think my favorite is when I was told that I didn’t look my Facebook photo from a company. I’ve allowed the word no to shape me into this confident person.

Three weeks ago, Dr. Letty Workman, my mentor and idol, helped me to explore more options in life. She expanded my mindset and helped me to create a ten-year plan, even. I have a debt that I will never ever be able to repay to her. This plan has helped me to get a focus and direction and to know what I really want to go after. I’ve been able to wipe somethings off the table. Though, there are about three players left on the table, I’ve never been calmer about the future. I have a new-found love for what is next. I’m truly excited and love the adventure that I will be embarking on. It will shake the world and many will disagree with it, but I am ready to leap forward to it. I what will truly make me happy in this world. It is time to face my fears.

As I sit on this train, my heart is full of love for those that have touched my heart in Provo. The good, the bad, the ugly, the laughs, and the in-betweens have all shaped me to be the person that I am today. Provo, Utah has a piece of my heart! I dread the day that I will have to look out of my door and the Y won’t be there. The dating capital of the world has left the biggest impact on my life, larger than my mission. It has been the Saturday nights of just watching movies with friends and laughing till all of us need to go to bed. It’s the moment where you ask the cute girl in the ward out three times and she says no every time (and before you ask, this did happen to me). It is the moments of stress and frustration. It is the moments where you longboard down the streets with your home girl till she falls off and skids her knee. It is the moments where you cry your eyes out because of a relationship has ended. It is in the moment where you are home teaching about flirting and you have everyone in the room role play how to flirt with girls. It is in the moment of seeing your best friends walk in the classroom door each night, excited to see you. It is in the moments where you know you have lost your best friend. It is in the moment when you tell the girl no for the date. It is in the many, many, many sporting games. Nothing beats sitting in institute with your friend and your stake president is discussing the weird topics of intimacy in marriage. Provo has a piece of my heart that can never be replaced. I know that I will be sad when I say goodbye to it. So, rather than cut it off like a Band-Aid, I’ve been preparing my heart to get broken. I’ve been scared to start a new life and become fresh. I am ready for it though. My growth has come to a hindrance. There are just a few things left for me to wrap up here. In a few months, I will have accomplished those things and my adventure will continue.

Lastly, I have much love for the last few months here. I am excited to embark on the next chapter but I’m more excited to make the most out of what is left for me here. I am excited to live to the fullest. I am excited for the few all-night study cram sessions that are upon me. I am excited to get rejected from the next cute girl that I ask out. I am even more excited to go on a date with a cute girl and have it go very well. I am excited to watch the finishing touches to be placed on my final projects in school, work, and life. I am excited to take this time and fully cherish it! To cherish it to the fullest. I will never be given the experiences that I have in Provo again. I can’t wait to take advantage of them. So, yes, I will be getting the big cupcake at the Mighty Baker and I will hike the Y at least ten more times. I will longboard the canyon with my home girl and I will laugh with my roommates. I will put all my efforts to pushing to the end!

So yes, I did hear my heart sing LOVE LOVE LOVE! 




The Good Life

After heartbreak, regret, disappointment, grief, and or anger welcomes themselves into my life, its natural for me to shut the world out. I personally find myself shutting the world out and not letting anyone find me. People ask me what I do and where I go when I shut the world out. The truth is, I find myself devoting myself more to my studies, running, work, and my relationship with God (not in that particular order either). I usually spend more hours than usual in the Temple, at least forty hours in the library for the week, harder focus at work, and bust it in the gym for large period of times. I find that shutting the outside world out helps me to focus on what matters the most and lets me hide a bit from my problems. It also gives me the chance to think. Being alone is something that I actually enjoy, which people find hard to believe. Being alone is a very comforting thing for me. Being alone lets me regroup my thoughts and then decide what I want to do to move forward. I like things to be quiet and peaceful. I find that the outside world is rather loud and I can’t always be the person that I want to be. So I retreat to the places where I don’t have to be around people. I justify in my mind that if I’m in places where people can’t be with me, then I don’t have talk to people. Many people don’t believe when I tell them that I am extremely introverted person but I am. I like to exclude the world and be alone.

Around the end of August/ beginning of September, I began shutting the outside world out again. I purposely didn’t answer phone calls or didn’t turn my phone on for long periods of time. I’ve hid in the Provo City Center Temple and the library. I’ve hid in the mountains near my house as I’ve gone for long runs or adventures with my roommates. I’ve only allowed my roommates and select few individuals to see me and know about my whereabouts. I’ve kept myself grounded and in my house. Its been really peaceful to not to see people. I’ve turned to my Father in Heaven for much guidance and light. In these moments, I’ve come to really feel the love that God has for me. I’ve felt his peace and healing power to help me in a time of much struggle.

Lately, I’ve been allowing myself to branch out and set social goals (yes, I have to set goals to interact with other individuals). I’ve begun to meet people in my ward, see people from my mission, and grow closer with my roommates. I’ve set goals to buckle down and get things done during the week so I could have the chance to interact with others on my weekends. Moving forward isn’t always the easiest thing for me but its something that must be done.

The past two weekends have been ones where I’ve had moments where I’ve had chances to reflect on things in the most random times. First, I went to Moab with my roommates and while sitting in-between two arches, I realized that that the Lord has really guided me to live with amazing men of God who help me in so many ways. They are so patient with me and understand when to back off and when to ask inspired questions for my progression. They don’t push me but rather are there for guidance and support. They bring much needed laughter and love at critical times. They see me for who I can be and help lift me to that person.


Then this weekend, I ran a half marathon with two amazing people from my mission. One of which I was able to run 12 of the 13.1 miles together talking. This was the first time I was social in a race and it was so needed. Being able to just talk about anything and everything was nice. However, it was after the race when I was invited to attend a OneRepublic concert with my best friend and his family that I realized much more. There was a moment halfway through this concert that I realized that God has really given me exactly what I need in life. He is so aware of who I am and who I need to get through the hardest of things. He has placed amazing people in my life that know exactly how to deal with my situations. He has given so much in times of need that I can’t help but be grateful.

I really do have a good life. A life that I couldn’t even dream of. I have much to be happy for. Moving forward into the future is something I’m excited for. I truly love all that has been given to me and the chance to regroup and figure my next steps in life. I look forward to being social again. To letting the world see me again. Though life is hard its not bad but rather good.





Safe and Sound

There are times in life where God knows just what to say or bring to us to have his love in our life. There are times in my life where I worry about if things are going to be ok. I worry about the next phase in life and what the final outcome is going to be. There have been trying times where I just want God to make everything better. I feel that when we get revelation it comes gradual. Its never all at once. Rather its just enough to make it through to the next step in life. For me, peace and comfort can be found through a simple song: Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift.

When this song first came out, it was given to me to find peace and hope in the biggest trial of my life. It was given to me in the very hour that I needed it. Sadly for my roommates, I held on to this and played it way more than what was needed. It became a sense of peace to know that I was going to be Safe and Sound. I knew that God had given it to me in that very moment for a reason and I was so grateful.

On mission, I am not allowed to listen to music so I that I can give my all to the Lord. However, the Lord knows me well and has given it to me in the very minutes that I have needed it. When I’ve hit that breaking point, it will either find a way to be played in my head or in a car passing by. It is then followed by the spiritual confirmation that I am going to be ok. That the Lord is there for me.

Last night, I was given this song in the wee hours of the morning. I couldn’t sleep. I tried so hard and yet nothing came from it. When I did get to sleep, it was not good at all. So I turned to my father in heaven. I began to read the scriptures. I realized that the Lord is mindful of me in my trails. There at three in morning, it played for me. In the middle of the night, I could hear God telling me that I was going to be safe and sound. That this next obsticle can and will be overcomed. The spiritual confirmation while reading the Book of Mormon was amazing. I know that the Lord is there for us. He knows actually what to say to show his love for us. I know that I will be safe and sound.


“Just Close Your Eyes

You’ll Be Just Fine

Come Morning Light

You and I will be Safe and Sound”

Power in Prayer


When we pray, we are asking the Lord to help guide us in our lives. It allows us to align the will of the father and the will of the child together. It always seems weird at first. It can feel that you are just praying to no one. However, there is always someone there that is listening. Our Heavenly Father listens to everything that we say to him and will answer every prayer. Sometimes we have to be patient but he does answer it. The best thing about prayer is the fact that we can find the peace and comfort that we need from prayer. Whenever hard times occur, we can turn to the Lord to get the relief that we need to make it through the rough times. Our Father is there and is just waiting for us to call upon him. A lady in line at Subway told me the other day that Prayer is the only phone line that is not busy and is always there for us. This lady is absolutely right! There never is a time where we can’t ask the Lord to help us when we need it. The Lord will answer our prayers as a way to show his love for us.

Our Greatest Title

On this earth, we have many callings and responsibilities to full fill. We take on many roles in this life: Runner, worker, boss, teacher, caregiver, and etc. There are many of these titles that make and shape into who we are. However, out of all the titles that we have, the greatest that we can take on is the title of Father, Mother, Husband, and Wife. The family is the greatest thing that we can have in this life. When we take on the responsibility of having children, we are allowing our selves to responsibility for one of our Heavenly Father’s child. It is a huge responsibility that we have that is sadly being taken lightly right now.  We are seeing that family values are being lost and families are not being together any more. That is why a family rooted into the Gospel of Jesus Christ is so vital. It is important that fathers and mothers take the time to teach their children the importance of the gospel and have that eternal perspective. One of the things that I love the most about the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, is our importance of families and the fact that families can be together forever. In the temple, we can be sealed for all time and eternity to our family. The family is the greatest gift that our Heavenly Father has given us and we can’t take the responsibility too lightly. Recently, Heavenly Father has been teaching me the importance of having a family. I have never been one to want to have one but I see that on an eternal perspective, they are so vital. I look forward to the time that I get to have my own family.

Next to Jesus Christ, the greatest thing that the Lord has given us is our families. The family is ordained of God and is the most important social unit in this life and in eternity. Families that are centered in Christ will allow for greater love and apprentice towards one another. Also allowing more love, peace, joy, and happiness. Happiness and love cant be at its highest without the eternal perspective. When we see that families are can have the opportunity to be sealed together through the priesthood authority of God, we get more happiness in knowing that this joy will be forever. It becomes our greatest responsibility from God to protect and value our roles as mothers and fathers more important. God is allowing us to use this divine gift to help us grow and see the beauty of what God’s love is for us. We also are given the responsibility to make sure that our children get an opportunity to learn of the plan that the father has for us. “By divine design, fathers are to preside over their families in love and righteousness and are responsible for the necessities of life and protection for their families. Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children. In these sacred responsibilities, fathers and mothers are obligated to help one another as equal partners” (Ensign, Nov. 1995, 102). When it comes to families, it is an equal partnership: no one parent is responsible for all of the raising. Both parents play a part that needs to be played.

Growing up, I had a single mother. It was difficult in times. I can remember my mother having to work two jobs to make sure that everything would work out for us. This resulted in a lot of times where my mother was not there. I can remember having to be the last child picked up from the babysitter. Left wondering when she was going to be there. I can remember having to be tucked into bed by grandparents and  then being woken up in middle of the night to have my mother.  Just to say hello to us. I am very grateful for the sacrifices that she had to go through to help us out. However, having a single mother caused a void and loads of question to fester in my heart. I don’t know who my father is. I have no idea what he even looks like. Growing up, this was a hard thing to shallow. Instead of being grateful, I began to grow a hatred towards a man that I have never even met. Father’s Day became a day that I dreaded. There will always be questions that I can’t have an answer to and I am ok with that, because I understand the importance now of having two parents. I fully understand the importance of two parents in a child’s life. I may never have an earthly father but instead, I can be the father someday that I would have always wanted. More important, I have a loving Heavenly Father that wants us to live with him. So as parents, we have to rise up to the calling that the Lord has given us. Through the Savior’s Love, we can become the parents that we need to be. As we fulfill the plan that our Heavenly Father has for us, we will have the chance to have true happiness for eternity.

Love for the Single Mother



Throughout our life, I feel that we get overwhelmed and we don’t have anyone there that will help us. We work ourselves to the bone and it becomes to much to handle. Growing up, I had a single mother for the longest times. As a child, I didn’t understand all the things that she had to go through. All the responsibilities that she had to do weren’t apparent to me till I actually grew up and had to do things all on my own. I have so much respect for my single mother because she really had to do everything!! She had to worry about all of our bills were paid, taking us to all the sporting events, and then making sure the house was always clean with a meal on the table on top of working two jobs. However, I think the reason that she was was able to do so much was because our family has something else working with us, Jesus Christ. Growing up, my mother was a strong supporter in making sure that all of her children were in church. She made sure that religion was a large part of our upbringing. She had to relay on the Lord in more ways than one to make sure that everything was accomplished for us. Being on my mission, I have grown to have a larger appreciation for my mother now that I have been teaching more single mothers.  One of my favorite families was in my first area and I was blessed to have the opportunity to see how the gospel of Jesus Christ has affected their family. Sister Owens is a remarkable women who have been raising five children and has done a great job in having the Lord in apart of their upbringing. When I met Sister Owens, things in their family was just beginning to be hectic for them as her children were all going into different paths.  As  the gospel of Jesus Christ came into their life, I was able to sit back and watch how their family has grown so much closer and more connected with their Heavenly Father.  I have so much respect and admiration for Sister Owens because each day she just tries to do everything for all of her kids and on top of it, she taking care of her mother too. The gospel of Jesus Christ has given them so many different blessing but I feel the biggest blessing is that her Heavenly Father is helping her take care of her children. She has the help from the greatest power of all time. Like my mother and Sister Owen, there are times for single parents were times are more stressful than ever. There are times where single parents don’t know how everything is going to pan out and all they want is for the house to be clean more than a day. A single mom wants peace and to get everything accomplished. However, I know that our Heavenly Father is always there to help those that need it. There is never a trial to hard for us as we turn to the Lord for his help.  As we go through the trail with faith, we will have more happiness when get the blessing.

Peace and Love








Life is full of many obstacles. We never know where we are going and many times we have many questions. We are never sure what is expected of us and not sure what the final product of our life will hold for us. However, as we turn to the Lord we can find our selves in a life that can be full of added peace as we go through our life. Months before going  on my mission, I was worried, lost, confused and just struggling to think that I would fully be an instrument for the Lord. I had lots of concerns and I just didn’t understand how everything would pan out. However, I loved my Lord and I knew that if I turned to him that he would help me. The night before I entered the Missionary Training Center, I got the opportunity to go to the Temple in Salt Lake City with my family. Walking around there, I was given the peace that I needed. Before that night, I was praying that the Lord will help me. I prayed for his strength and I prayed to have his guidance for me. Walking around with my family, I felt the peace that everything would be ok and that the Lord would be there for me. 

The first time I ever got to feel true peace from the Lord came to me as a freshmen in high school. My uncle had just died in Iraq and I was lost. My uncle was my role model, the person that I turned to for many things. When he died, my life was flipped upside down. I had to find the strength that I needed from my savior. My savior gave me feeling of peace one day while running. I went for a run and just ran out every emotion that was going on for me. Peace came while I crying on the side of the road.

The Lord knows who we are and he knows what we need at the certain moments of our life. Today while reading from the scriptures I realized that the Lord will answer our prayers when we are sincere. When we pray with true interest and truly wanting the peace in our life, our Heavenly Father will answer those prayers for us.