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The Good Life

After heartbreak, regret, disappointment, grief, and or anger welcomes themselves into my life, its natural for me to shut the world out. I personally find myself shutting the world out and not letting anyone find me. People ask me what I do and where I go when I shut the world out. The truth is, I find myself devoting myself more to my studies, running, work, and my relationship with God (not in that particular order either). I usually spend more hours than usual in the Temple, at least forty hours in the library for the week, harder focus at work, and bust it in the gym for large period of times. I find that shutting the outside world out helps me to focus on what matters the most and lets me hide a bit from my problems. It also gives me the chance to think. Being alone is something that I actually enjoy, which people find hard to believe. Being alone is a very comforting thing for me. Being alone lets me regroup my thoughts and then decide what I want to do to move forward. I like things to be quiet and peaceful. I find that the outside world is rather loud and I can’t always be the person that I want to be. So I retreat to the places where I don’t have to be around people. I justify in my mind that if I’m in places where people can’t be with me, then I don’t have talk to people. Many people don’t believe when I tell them that I am extremely introverted person but I am. I like to exclude the world and be alone.

Around the end of August/ beginning of September, I began shutting the outside world out again. I purposely didn’t answer phone calls or didn’t turn my phone on for long periods of time. I’ve hid in the Provo City Center Temple and the library. I’ve hid in the mountains near my house as I’ve gone for long runs or adventures with my roommates. I’ve only allowed my roommates and select few individuals to see me and know about my whereabouts. I’ve kept myself grounded and in my house. Its been really peaceful to not to see people. I’ve turned to my Father in Heaven for much guidance and light. In these moments, I’ve come to really feel the love that God has for me. I’ve felt his peace and healing power to help me in a time of much struggle.

Lately, I’ve been allowing myself to branch out and set social goals (yes, I have to set goals to interact with other individuals). I’ve begun to meet people in my ward, see people from my mission, and grow closer with my roommates. I’ve set goals to buckle down and get things done during the week so I could have the chance to interact with others on my weekends. Moving forward isn’t always the easiest thing for me but its something that must be done.

The past two weekends have been ones where I’ve had moments where I’ve had chances to reflect on things in the most random times. First, I went to Moab with my roommates and while sitting in-between two arches, I realized that that the Lord has really guided me to live with amazing men of God who help me in so many ways. They are so patient with me and understand when to back off and when to ask inspired questions for my progression. They don’t push me but rather are there for guidance and support. They bring much needed laughter and love at critical times. They see me for who I can be and help lift me to that person.

 

Then this weekend, I ran a half marathon with two amazing people from my mission. One of which I was able to run 12 of the 13.1 miles together talking. This was the first time I was social in a race and it was so needed. Being able to just talk about anything and everything was nice. However, it was after the race when I was invited to attend a OneRepublic concert with my best friend and his family that I realized much more. There was a moment halfway through this concert that I realized that God has really given me exactly what I need in life. He is so aware of who I am and who I need to get through the hardest of things. He has placed amazing people in my life that know exactly how to deal with my situations. He has given so much in times of need that I can’t help but be grateful.

I really do have a good life. A life that I couldn’t even dream of. I have much to be happy for. Moving forward into the future is something I’m excited for. I truly love all that has been given to me and the chance to regroup and figure my next steps in life. I look forward to being social again. To letting the world see me again. Though life is hard its not bad but rather good.

 

 

 

 

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True Happiness

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It seems in life that no matter where we are headed and where we are going we all have one common goal: we all want to be happy. We all yearn for that desire to be happy with the things we are doing. We all want to have that smile on our face. There is not a soul in the world that can be ok with feeling depressed, lonely, or sad. Granted there are things that each enjoys that others would cause to think are sad. For example, I love the rain. The minute it starts to drizzle my heart skips a beat and I am beyond excited to be in it. Others look at rain as depressing and cold.

The question in life seems more often then none is how can I find more happiness? How can I become happy? These simple but real questions can be found as we study and apply the gospel of Jesus Christ into our lives. Jesus Christ is the source of real happiness. The worldly things in life can only bring a temporary happiness. The affects of the world have one seeking for more happiness because they have an expiration date on them. Once the event has ended so has the happiness in one’s life. Leaving one to be back at square one. However, the gospel of Jesus Christ is different. Our true happiness is found as we apply the teaching of Christ in our life. Life will take on a whole new meaning and one will findĀ a happiness that will last much longer than just a few hours. The happiness that one finds in Christ is a happiness that will last for eternity. Granted there will be trials and hardship but when one exercises their faith and trust in Christ, happiness can still be found in the smaller things of life. Life begins to take on a whole new meaning and one finds them self being able to endure rather than looking for a new source of happiness.

As a 23 year old man, I find the greatest source of happiness to come from the Book of Mormon. As I study the teaching of Jesus Christ, my spirit taps my soul every day to reassure the love of the savior to me. My spirit taps my soul to tell me to smile because I have been given so much. My spirit taps my heart to tell me the things I need so that I can carry on the journey. These spiritual taps give me the happiness I needed in this life. I wouldn’t have these spiritual taps if it wasn’t for the Book of Mormon. It’s the best gift that the Father has given me.

We can all find that source of true happiness in our lives as we take the time to study and then apply the teachings of our savior. I am so grateful for Jesus Christ and all that he has done for me. He is my light in this world and the source of true happiness. May we all be willing to put him in our life

 


Change for the better (Goodbye Arlington, Hello Hendricks)

In life, there are times where things seem so final. Where we come to the end of a project and it is done. For example, high school graduation. After one walks across that stage and throws their hat in the air, it is done. There will never be that opportunity again. A feeling of completion takes hold and one knows that he or she will never be walking through those doors again with the same purpose or feel. A new change begins as that individual takes on the challenges that life brings to them. As a missionary, I have experienced this feeling of completion multiple times. Recently, I was transferred out of Arlington to Hendricks Ave. As change as taken place, the feeling of finalization took place as I closed a stage of my life. I am grateful for the blessing that I received to be a part of such an amazing place. It was a bit sad to say goodbye to what was my life for a period of time. However, I move forward in faith as I know this change is for the better. Change is essential for our progression. We can not grow if we do not have change. With each new phase, we get the opportunity to grow. We learn new insights about ourselves that we never thought we could know. More importantly, change allows us to grow closer to our Heavenly Father. As we put our trust in him, we get to see the purpose in all things. We get a glimpse of divine purpose, of who we really are.

In my early college days, I use to reject change. I use to hate the thought of new things. I was happy with the way things were and yet I was content. However, I realized that change was needed. I was holding myself back from getting to experience the fullness that change brings with it. Now, I love change. I love the things that change brings with it. It’s like a fresh start each time. Change came to me at a time that I needed it the most. As I move forward in this new area with a new companion, I realize I don’t know what is going to be brought my way. I don’t know what good or bad experiences are in store for me. However, I do know that the Lord has a purpose. That there is a reason for this change. I trust my Heavenly Father will be there with me every step of the way. I embrace this change and hope for the adventures. I look forward to the struggles that will present themselves to me, to help me become a better disciple of Jesus Christ, now and forever. As we go forward in faith, we must accept the change that is given to us. We must acknowledge the love that our Heavenly Father has for us and continue to hold fast to the trust we have in. All things are possible through the Lord. Embrace the change that comes your way.